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Heart 'n' Hands

by Allowah

Eclectic rock pop folk spiritual spoken word with a tinge of psychedelia, straight from the heart.
Genre: Spiritual: Inspirational
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1. Heart 'n' Hands (feat. Grace)
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2. The Forgotten Song
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3. All Are Called (feat. Grace)
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4. Christmas Presence
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5. Teach Only Love (feat. Grace)
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6. Holy Encounter (feat. Grace)
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7. Hold onto Nothing (feat. Grace)
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8. Be Still (feat. Grace)
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9. Bless You Brother
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10. Light of the World (feat. Grace)
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11. We Dwell in Eternity (feat. Grace)
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12. So Long (feat. Grace)
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13. Come Home (feat. Grace)
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Album Notes
[from the Back Cover]

“We enlist you
to be silent
& listen
to your heart…”

1. Heart ‘n’ Hands

2. The Forgotten Song

3. All Are Called

4. Christmas Presence

5. Teach Only Love

6. Holy Encounter

7. Hold On to Nothing

8. Be Still

9. Bless You, Brother

10. Light of the World

11. We Dwell In Eternity

12. So Long

13. Come Home

Allowah with Grace

Truly Helpful Records, 2016

Heart ‘n’ Hands ~ Liner Notes

“Nothing real can be threatened
Nothing unreal exists
Herein lies the peace of God.”

“…And I place the peace of God
in your heart & in your hands,
to hold & share…”

“The heart is pure to hold it
& the hands are strong to give it,
We cannot lose.”

Just as it is with identifying our true Self, perhaps we can best get at what this CD is by saying first what it is not.
First and most importantly, it is not an attempt to popularize A Course in Miracles, something which I sense is not truly possible anyway. Nor is it an attempt to convert anyone to the Course with the thought that if only more people heard its profound teachings, all would become believers and there would be Heaven on earth. Rather, the intention is that through sharing the deep truths that the Course presents, we strengthen them in ourselves. In doing so, we release all the illusionary barriers to Love that we have accepted as real and clear the way to the return Home to God (or Supreme Self, Spirit, Source, Love, Oneness, etc.).

Making this more personal, there is only one person who needs to wake up here, and that person is me(!) Writing and singing these songs has helped to reinforce these radical ideas in my mind and essentially “re-mind” myself that only the Love of God is real. In that sense, the CD has already served its purpose, before even being released to the world.

That said, of course, the personal is universal: “As I change, the world changes with me.” Changing myself IS changing the world, because it is changing my perspective of the world, seeing it through the forgiving eyes of Spirit, rather than the judgmental eyes of separation. And as I see all of this differently, then miraculously and paradoxically, so does everyone else… until my perception becomes completely true and the whole things dissolves back into the Oneness that it always was.

So when Jesus in the Course says “I place the peace of God in your heart and hands to hold and share,” I understand that to mean the following:
It doesn’t matter so much how you share it, but please do share it, because it is in sharing the truth of our oneness that we are released. As John Lennon sang, “Whatever gets you through the night is alright.” It doesn’t matter how you get there, but do get there. And if you can share now, why stand on ceremony, why wait?

On that note, the Course makes a clear distinction between “form” and “content.” The essential message of the Course is consistent throughout and unwavering, and it is essentially the Golden Rule: to love our neighbor as ourself, because they are indeed our Self, there is ultimately no separation. That is the fundamental content of the Course. Yet the form that that content takes is situation-dependent. And the form it is taking right now is the form of the CD that you now hold in your hands.

Now, nowhere in the Course does Jesus say anything like, “Hey, put th*s sh*t to music!” Yet nor does he say not to put the Course’s teachings to music. In fact, the Course is not so much a guide to behavior as it is a guide to looking at the inner motivation for our actions. The same action can be done with an egoic motivation, or one guided by spirit. We are asked to ever look beyond the form to get at the underlying content.

The fact is that so many passages in the Course do seem to call out to be set to music, they are that beautiful and poetic. Passages such as “The Holy Encounter” and “The Forgotten Song,” and even oft-repeated passages in the Workbook such as “I am not a body, I am free, for I am still as God [or Love] created me.” For this reason, I have no doubt that in the coming years we will see more and more of this kind of musical offering happening (including by yours truly : ). Clearly sound and music help to internalize and reinforce the lessons like nothing else can.

This is my first “official” music offering that’s being “released” to the world. It’s not a mistake or insignificant that I chose the words and principles of the Course for my musical palette. The Course is, quite simply, a masterpiece and a modern classic of world spirituality. At this stage in my journey, I don’t feel I could sing as authentically and passionately about anything else.

So I offer this full plate/course meal to you and do trust you will find it palatable, if you just give yourself some time to deeply listen and acquire a taste for the sublimity that is A Course in Miracles.

~ Allowah Lani ~ August, 2016

ps. I see this offering as but the first in a series of Course-based recordings. Please stay tuned for more!



Allowah ~ Guitar, Voice, Harmonica, Composition

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals, Hand Clapping

Julian Sundy ~ Rhodes Organ

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

[This song was originally titled “Heart & Hands,” but somehow got changed to “Heart in Hands.” Both work, but the first one gets more at the inner meaning of the passage quoted in the song. My fraternal twin brother helped me find a compromise solution by coming up with the clever idea of calling it “Heart ‘n’ Hands” – like ‘Rock ‘n’ Roll” -- so you can blame him! Again, the idea here is that as we share “the peace of God” with all of our brethren, we awaken and remember the simple truth that we all are indeed one, and the game is already over and won. And that’s the sound of one hand clapping, so give your Self a hand : )]

G C D + Hand Clapping : )

Nothing real can be threatened
Nothing unreal exists
Herein lies the peace of God (3x)

And I place the peace of God in your heart & in your hands
To hold & share (4x)

The heart is pure to hold it & the hands are strong to give it
We cannot lose (3x)

‘cause we already won
we already won
we won (one)
we one
& what’s the sound of one hand clapping? (2x)

And I place the peace of God in your heart & in your hands
To hold & share (4x)

Nothing real can be threatened
Nothing unreal exists
Herein lies the peace of God (3x)



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Harmonica, Ocarina, Didgeridoo, Composition

[This is one of those passages in the Course that is just so beautiful it seems to call out to be set to music. And after all, it does use music as a metaphor for the experience of awakening to the one universal song beyond all songs and things of this world. Listen -- perhaps you can still hear that song in spaces between the notes…]

Listen –
perhaps you catch a hint of an ancient state
not quite forgotten;
dim, perhaps, and yet not altogether unfamiliar,
like a song whose name is long forgotten;
and the circumstances in which you heard completely unremembered.

Not the whole song has stayed with you,
but just a little wisp of melody,
attached not to a person or a place or anything particular.

But you remember, from just this little part,
how lovely was the song,
how wonderful the setting where you heard it,
and how you loved those who were there
and listened with you.

The notes are nothing.

Yet you have kept them with you, not for themselves,
but as a soft reminder of what would make you weep
if you remembered how dear it was to you.

You could remember, yet you are afraid,
believing you would lose the world you learned since then.

And yet you know that nothing in the world you learned
is half so dear as this.

and see if you remember an ancient song
you knew so long ago
and held more dear than any melody
you taught yourself to cherish since.


(radio version)

Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Composition

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

Jay Heavilin ~ Upright Bass

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

[This song is based around a passage from the Course where Jesus re-envisions a Gospel verse, in this case Matthew 22:14. The point being that the verse in the Gospels makes it sound a bit elitist, that somehow you must be a “chosen one” to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Of course, this was not the intention, but it still could be misinterpreted (and it has), so Jesus in the Course corrects the language to say that in fact we all are chosen, but not everyone chooses to return home right away, and that’s okay because they will eventually choose that, and time is an illusion anyway. Yet it is also true that only “few” will make it their calling in any given lifetime/generation to hear God’s voice, and this is not a judgment, just an observation!

On another note, I want to add that I had been playing with the “listen-silent-enlist” wordplay for years and it finally found its way into this song. Love it when that happens. : )]

“I cannot choose for you,
but I can help you make your own right choice.
"Many are called but few are chosen" should be,
"All are called but few choose to listen."
Therefore, they do not choose right.
The "chosen ones" are merely those who choose right sooner. Right minds can do this now,
and they will find rest unto their souls.
God knows you only in peace,
and this is your reality.”

I enlist you/
To be silent/
& listen
to your heart

I enlist you/
To be silent/
& listen/
to the calling of your heart

To Be/
To Be in Love/
To Be/
To Be in Love/
To Be… (2x)

All are called and few choose to listen
All are called and few choose to listen
All are called, all are called

All are called and few choose to listen
All are called and few choose to listen
All are called, just listen

& Be/
Be In Love/
& Be
Just Be In Love (2x)

I enlist you/
To be silent/
& listen/
to your heart (2x)

All are called and few choose to listen
All are called and few choose to listen
All are called, all are called

All are called and few choose to listen
All are called and few choose to listen
All are called, please listen

And Yet Everyone will come Home
Yet Everyone will come Home
Everyone will Listen
And Yes, Everyone will be Free
Yes, Everyone will be Free
Everyone will Be…

Be, Be in Love
Be, Just Be in Love
Be (2x)

I Love You
I Love You
I Love You



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Harmonica, Whistling

Jay Heavilin ~ Upright Bass

Children’s Choir ~

[For me, if the 13 songs on this CD were to represent Jesus and the 12 apostles, this would be the J-man himself. I mean that just to give special props to this song, and others have noted its uniqueness as well. Its simple, childlike quality is both fitting for the theme, and also gets to the heart of the ultimately very simple message of the Course: That we are no different than God, and that as God is Love, so must we be, and this has never changed and never could change. So all that we must do is to rest in that faith and learn whatever lessons we need to along the way – as much as we are in the way – and learn, little by little, to accept the greatest gift of all, that of “Presence.” And this comes through the gift that was “fore given” – forgiveness, what the Course tells us is the key to our release from a hell of our own making.

Want to also mention that the “you are forgiven” is of much more recent vintage than the rest of the song. I had been playing around with the end of the The Who’s “A Quick One” and then realized that it could really fit well with this song. In the end, I liked it so much that I decided it would have to be on the recorded version. Did I ask or get anyone’s permission? I, George Washington, cannot tell a lie (well, I can, and have ; ), I verily did not. I would love if Pete Townshend were to hear this song and bring a lawsuit or cease and desist order for stealing his idea. And maybe stealing other of his ideas, too, for all I know, he was such a big influence and I stand small on his tall shoulders. Baba Z (Bob Dylan), too. Hey, if this CD were to ever sell, I will gladly give them both a Rock Royalty check!

Ps. The only actual words from the Course itself here, besides the reading at the outset, are the words that begin “Into Christ’s Presence will we enter now…” I especially wanted to have this passage on the CD because it was apparently one of Helen’s favorites (Helen Schucman was the scribe of the Course).


“The sign of Christmas is a star, a light in darkness. See it not outside yourself, but shining in the Heaven within, and accept it as the sign the time of Christ has come…
This Christmas, give the Holy Spirit EVERYTHING that would hurt you. LET yourself be healed completely that you may join with Him in healing, and let us celebrate our release together by releasing everyone with us. Leave nothing behind, for release is total, and when you have accepted it with me you will GIVE it with me. All pain and sacrifice and littleness will disappear in our relationship, which is as innocent as our relationship with our Father, and as powerful. Pain will be brought to us and disappear in our presence, and without pain there can BE no sacrifice. And without sacrifice there love MUST be.” (ACIM Text 15.11)

The Sun Has Risen
Oh in my Heart
& I shall listen
to what He shall impart

So pure and innocent
mmm as a little lamb
My Christmas Present
To Know that Love I Am (repeat)

Now the Son also rises
In every sing-all Person
& the surprise is
we shine in Unison (repeat)


So Love thy neighbor
Oh ‘tis the Season
Become thy savior
In the light of Reason

We’ll learn our lessons
Guided by your star
Our Christmas Presence
To Know that Love we are (repeat)


Into Christ’s Presence
will we enter now
serenely unaware of everything
except His shining face
and perfect love
You Are Forgiven
(and there was nothing ever to forgive any way…
it was fore given.. and this I learned from the Sun/Son…)
The Son Has Risen
Oh in my Heart
And I shall listen
to what He doth impart

So pure & innocent (you)
Mmm as a little lamb
Our Christmas presence
To know that Love I Am
To know that Love I Am
I Am I Am I Am



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Harmonica

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

[The words of this song are taken almost verbatim from the section in the Course entitled “The Holy Encounter.” The passage is an exquisitely simple reminder to remember to love the other as ourself, for they truly our our Self. The thing is that even though this seems so obvious and simply true, it’s not so simple to “never forget” and “always remember” this! It’s just so tempting to forget, and forget we do time and again. Perhaps this song will help you&I to remember together again as one…
One other thing to note: Here as elsewhere I took some poetic license in changing the wording of the Course. Why would I do that unless I was wanting to popularize the Course, one might ask? Well, first of all, don’t ask me to be consistent, I acknowledge that I’m just not there yet! You? Again, the “Heart ‘n’ Hands” theme: It doesn’t matter how you share it (Form), but do share the love (Content). In the end, though, there is no substitute for the Course itself.

A B7 C#7

When you meet anyone, remember it’s a holy encounter

As you see him, you will see yourself.

As you treat her, you will treat yourself.

As you think of them, you think of yourself.

Never forget this. Never forget this. Never forget this.

For in your brother you will find your Self
or lose sight of your Self

Yes, in your sister you find yourself
Or lose sight of yourself

And we’re really only here to know our Self
Yes, we are really only here to know Thyself
& to Thine Own Self Be True
There is nothing else
Nothing else to do
Nothing else to do

So when you meet anyone, remember it’s a holy encounter

As you see him, you will see yourself.

As you treat her, you will treat yourself.

As you think of him or her or it, you think of yourself.

Never forget this. Never forget this. Never forget this.



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Composition

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

CHORDS: D minor C A minor

[This passage is found in Lesson 189 of the Course. Early on in my work with the Course, my Course colleague and amigo Hector Munoz pointed this passage out as an especially potent one. I almost immediately began to attempt to set it to music. Perhaps it has kind of an intense and even dark feel to it, and yet the point is merely for it to come across like the urgent exhortation to question our deepest held beliefs that it truly is. I feel that there is some dark humor in the “simply do this” line, as even though this truly is simple, it still ain’t so simple to do!]

Simply do this (4x)

Be still

and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is;
all concepts you have learned about the world;
all images you hold about yourself.

Empty your mind
of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy,
and all the ideas of which it is ashamed.

Hold onto nothing.

Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught,
nor one belief you ever learned before from anything.

Forget this world, forget these words,
and come with wholly empty hands
unto your God.

Hold onto nothing… Simply do this… Hold onto nothing…



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Trumpet, Didgeridoo

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

Julian Sunby ~ Arrangement, Bass Clarinet

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

[There are several passages in the Course where we are exhorted to “be still” (as in the previous song) with a clear echo of the psalm: “Be still and know I am God.” What isn’t as clear is what the Course means by “be still.” Like everything in the Course, it doesn’t mean what you might think it means. For the Course, “be still” doesn’t mean just to still one’s body per se, but to return one’s mind completely back to God. The generally unstated implication is that this isn’t easy for us, so it will take time, and we are to get there through forgiveness – releasing all of the grievances we’ve held against the world and the “Other,” our brother. We are also asked to question all of our beliefs about the world, and really listen deeply to Jesus’ words, as well as the Holy Spirit within us. Love so much what Julian did with this, especially with the surprise addition of the bass clarinet! Miles would be proud! (I hope : )]

Chords: G minor C

Be Still & Know I Am (4x)

I Am I Am
I Am I Am


“ Let us be still an instant, and forget all things we ever learned, all thoughts we had, and every preconception that we hold of what things mean and what their purpose is. Let us remember not our own ideas of what the world is for. We do not know. Let every image held of everyone be loosened from our minds and swept away.
“Be innocent of judgment, unaware of any thoughts of evil or of good that ever crossed your mind of anyone. Now do you know him not. But you are free to learn of him, and learn of him anew. Now is he born again to you, and you are born again to him, without the past that sentenced him to die, and you with him. Now is he free to live as you are free, because an ancient learning passed away, and left a place for truth to be reborn.” [From the end of Chapter 31, “The Final Vision.”]



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Composition

Julian Sunby ~ Rhodes Organ

CHORDS: C to Dminor

[Just yet another gorgeous passage from the Course, which comes at the very end of Lesson 127, “There Is No Love But God’s” (the reading at the beginning of the song is also from Lesson 127). Here we find the “Heart ‘n’ Hands” theme again, which is that we strengthen these profound lessons within ourselves by sharing them with our kindred brethren, who are one in Spirit with us. It meant a lot to me that this was one of Producer Julian’s favorite songs, I dedicate to him and the music love we have shared together.]

Love cannot judge. As it is one itself, it looks on all as one. Its meaning lies in oneness. And it must elude the mind that thinks of it as partial or in part. There is no love but God's, and all of love is His. There is no other principle that rules where love is not. Love is a law without an opposite. Its wholeness is the power holding everything as one, the link between the Father and the Son which holds Them both forever as the same.

I bless you brother with the Love of God
Which I would share with you for I would learn
The joyous lesson that there is no Love
But God’s and yours and mine and everyone’s

Aminor Eminor D G

There is no Love but God’s
And we are all there
There is no Love but God’s
And it is for us to share
Here There & Everywhere
It is
for us
to share

I Bless You Brother… (repeat)



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Composition, Didgeridoo

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

Rick Franz ~ Strings, Sound Engineer and Producer

“You have taught yourself to believe that you are not what you are. You cannot teach what you have not learned, and what you teach you strengthen in yourself because you are sharing it. Every lesson you teach you are learning.

That is why you must teach only one lesson. If you are to be conflict-free yourself, you must learn only from the Holy Spirit and teach only by Him. You are only love, but when you deny this, you make what you are something you must learn to remember. I said before that the message of the crucifixion was, "Teach only love, for that is what you are." This is the one lesson that is perfectly unified, because it is the only lesson that is one. Only by teaching it can you learn it. "As you teach so will you learn." If that is true, and it is true indeed, do not forget that what you teach is teaching you.” (ACIM Chapter 6, Section III)

Only Love
Only Love Is Real…

Teach Only Love
For That Is What You Are



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, harmonica, composition

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

[This song consists of several of the Workbook lessons of the Course strung together to create a consistent message, once again with the theme of us being the “heart and hands” here to bring a message of forgiveness to the world. Here we have an apparent departure from the view that Jesus was the only Son of God, and that only he was the “light of the world.” The Course indeed offers a different perspective, saying that even though Jesus was the first to complete the process of return and did it for all of us, we are nonetheless still each responsible for salvation and must work it out through forgiveness of our brethren. As we do, we remove all of the barriers to the Love of God that we have allowed to obscure that Light, as clouds block the warmth of the sun. And when we do this completely, we remember that we, too, are all none other than the One Son who is One with the One Who is our Source. Only then has the Light truly come.]

D G A7

I’m Still As God Created me (3x)
I am the Light of the World


I am the holy Son of God (3x)
I Am the Light of the World


GOD is but Love and so am I (3x)
I am the Light of the World


I came for the salvation of the world (3x)
I am the Light of the World


And now the Light has come (3x)
We are the Light of the World




Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Didgeridoo, Composition
Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

[Like the Course, you might see this song as a kind of lullabye – to lull us bye and bye to awaken. It actually combines two distinct passage in the Course, plus adds a verse in my own words (the one beginning “Home where the heart is…). The “I am not a body, I am free” part is actually one of the most repeated lines in the entire Course. I was originally thinking this would be a much longer song and that last part would go on for considerably longer. As it is, it’s more of an art piece, and I’m perfectly at peace with that : ) There’s still time to put out a meditation CD!]

Chords: A D E












HOME (4x)






SO HUM (4x)





Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Harmonica, Composition

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

Julian Sunby ~ Hammond Organ, Arrangement

Jay Heavilin ~ Upright Bass

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

[You could say simply that the history of Pop music is turning songs about God into songs about love and romance. But it’s not that simple. There are many songs about God that are disguised as love songs. And of course, some songs can be heard on many different levels. I would hope that this one works on those different levels, because I don’t see a distinction between the love of God and the love of another human being. Nor does the Course, of course. Indeed, one of the Course’s fundamental messages is “together, or not at all,” meaning that we all return Home together, or else we’re still stuck in the illusion of separation. While it is a fact that many songs have used this chord progression (such as one of my favorites, “Dock of the Bay”), as well as the phrase “we are the ones we’ve been waiting for,” this song is saying something slightly different: it’s not we are the “ones” but we are the One we’ve been waiting for… The idea is that we are ultimately all one and waking up to that understanding, slowly slowly, ending the “detour into fear” that the Course says we mistakenly took in that primal moment of seeming separation. This song clearly does not use the words of the Course (except at the very end), and yet it is still very much inspired by the Course, despite it’s façade as a rock/pop song. May it be injoyed for just so long as it’s needed.]

CHORDS: Bflat D7 D# C

Baby you rock me to the core (coeur)
And now you’ve got me down on the floor
You are the one I’ve been waiting for
For so long

For so long now I’ve been on the road
Hiding out in the cold
A lonely traveler gone solo
for so long

For So long, I’ve been gone
For so long, we’ll be rocking on
For so long

(rock on)

Maybe now we can end this detour
And you&I will go on tour
We are the One we’ve been waiting for
For so long

For so long
We’ve been gone
For so long
We’ll be rockin’ on
For so long

We Are the One We’ve Been Waiting For

You are the One I’ve been waiting for/
I am the One you’ve been waiting for/
You are the One you’ve been waiting for/
We are the One we’ve been waiting for/
for so long…

You are the One I’ve been/I am the One you’ve been
You are the One you’ve been/We are the One we’ve been… waiting for, for so long…

“Oneness is simply the idea God is.
And in His Being, He encompasses all things.
No mind holds anything but Him.
We say "God is," and then we cease to speak,
for in that knowledge words are meaningless.
There are no lips to speak them,
and no part of mind sufficiently distinct
to feel that it is now aware of something not itself.
It has united with its Source.
And like its Source Itself,
it merely is.”



Allowah ~ Guitar, Vocals, Didgeridoo, Composition

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals

[This song began as a love song (before I got into the Course), and yet even as I was writing it I understood that it was coming from a place within me beyond romantic love. My beloved at the time loved it, affirming for me what I already felt. And even as it sat incomplete for the longest time, I always knew that I would finish it (or it would finish itself), I just didn’t know when. And then, this past Christmas, it began to all come together with the addition of the chorus, “Come Home.” Little did I know that at this very time, a friend and pillar of the Maui community named “Home” had taken his life. This song is dedicated to him, in remembrance of the deepest longing within all of us to finally come home.]

CHORDS: C vamp throughout

"Listen to the story of the prodigal son, and learn what God’s treasure is and YOURS: This son of a loving father left his home and thought he squandered everything for nothing of any value, although he did not know its worthlessness at the time. He was ashamed to return to his father, because he thought he had hurt him. Yet when he came home, the father welcomed him with joy because only the son himself WAS his father’s treasure. He WANTED nothing else. God wants only His Son because His Son is His only treasure. "
A Course in Miracles T-8

Come Home (Shalom)

Forever Have I Loved You
Forever Have I Longed for You
Forever Have I Missed You
Forever Have I Called to You
“There is no death because the Son of God is like his Father.
Nothing you can do can change Eternal Love.
Forget your dreams of sin and guilt, and come with me instead
to share the resurrection of God's Son.
And bring with you all those whom He has sent to you
to care for as I care for you.”
Thank you, Jesus,
Thank you, Friend
Thank you, Jesus
Thank you, again & again
Thank you, Jesus
Thank you, our Friend
Thank you, Amen
Forever Have I Loved You
Forever Have I Longed for You
Forever Have I Missed You
Forever Have I Called to You


Welcome Home
Welcome Home
Welcome Home

All songs arranged and produced by Julian Sunby
and mixed & mastered by Charlie Lukes at The Vibe Studio, Fort Myers, FL, 2016…

with the exception of “Teach Only Love,” which was originally engineered and produced by Rick Franz in his home studio, and later re-mixed and mastered by Julian Sunby and Charlie Lukes at The Vibe.


Allowah ~ Composer, Guitar, Vocals, Harmonica, Didgeridoo

Grace Ballenger ~ Vocals, Principal Muse-ician

Julian Sunby ~ Producer & Arranger

Charlie Lukes ~ Sound Engineer

Gerry Segal ~ Manager

Alexandra Ballenger ~ Cover Art & CD Design

Beata Acs ~ Graphic Artist

Special Guest Musicians

Randy Bailey ~ Percussion

Jay Heavilin ~ Upright Bass

Truly Helpful Records, 2016


First and foremost, I don’t want to thank God, because God doesn’t even know about this whole mess – and that’s kind of an insider Course joke, starry : )

And I don’t want to thank Jesus, either, because I already did that on “Come Home.” So that leaves us…?
Well, I do want to thank Spirit and all of us who are one in Spirit,

Thanks for the spirited listening and appreciation U!

And more specifically, a Huge Thank You to JAI SEGAL, who believed in this project from the start, enough to fund it to its completion, Mahalo Jai!!!

And also to another angel, GRACE BALLENGER, who was really the Muse of this, providing me with so much inspiration, not to mention support all along the way. And of course, Grace’s gorgeous vocals are self-evident throughout. Her presence was and is verily indeed a gift of Grace!

Grace’s daughter, ALEXA BALLENGER, also did amazing work on the CD cover and layout design. What a brilliant young artist! I look forward to collaborating more in the future, thank you, Alexa!

As far as the music goes, now I understand why George Martin was considered “The Fifth Beatle.” Really all I did was to bring my songs to JULIAN SUNBY and CHARLIE LUKES, but what they did with the basic tracks we laid down is just true genius. I consider them both to be masters of their craft, completely dedicated to producing the highest quality work possible for each of their clients. It has been just a pure joy working with them, through & through.

They also brought in two amazingly talented musicians, RANDY BAILEY on percussion, and JAY HEAVILIN on bass. Talk about a rhythm section! Well, why do that when you can sing about it? They really made a lot of these songs sing, not to mention ROCK, thanks guys!!!



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Prescription For Anxiety, Depression and Fear: Listen to Heart ‘n’ Hands daily while sitting peacefully with eyes closed. Repeat until symptoms disappear. These songs have changed my life. The lyrics are important teachings taken from The Course in Miracles (ACIM), brilliantly put to music, making them even more inspiring and etched into my consciousness. They are sung from Allowah’s heart to yours, and you will recognize their truth when you hear them. These powerful songs are replete with Allowah’s passion, strength, transcendence, love, and strong desire to be only Truly Helpful. I love how these songs remind me every day to choose love rather than fear. As the melodies run thru my mind, the authenticity of these enlightened words fill my heart with love, joy and peace. This is more than a CD, it is a heartfelt connection to the love and wisdom of Christ Consciousness. Like The Course itself, it offers the possibility of personal transformation. It’s all about the precious journey of becoming peace, forgiveness and unconditional love. I believe these songs were divinely inspired. Listen to them, and know All is Well.




Heart Opening
I grew up Christian and have recently opened my mind and heart to an open spirituality where love is the center, not guilt or judgement. I haven't read A Course In Miracles yet, and Allowah's CD, "Heart 'N' Hands" is a perfect introduction to ACIM! I love the passages he chose to inspire his beautiful songs as they have helped me to understand the teachings I originally studied from the Bible with a much more open and accepting light upon them. I now feel fully ready to start reading the course and will continue to listen to these songs as inspiration. Thank you Allowah!

Marilyn Hoekstra

A Course in Miracles musical meditation
Allowah’s quest to absorb the teachings of ACIM comes across strongly in his album. I find myself automatically mind singing "every one will come home" song when points of stress pop up! Allowah truly opens up a new avenue for ACIM learning by placing quotes to memorable music.

A Course in Miracles students and other spiritual seekers will want to download, listen and sing along! Allowah’s songs engage mind and heart. The thirteen tracks feature specially chosen quotes from A Course in Miracles. Each song has a different tone inviting the listener to engage with each unique offering.

Grace, a female vocalist with a strong sense of harmony, accompanies Allowah on several pieces. "Heart 'n Hands" is upbeat and has a folk-rock quality. "The Forgotten Song" is based on a well known and much loved quote from A Course in Miracles and has a dream-like quality to the accompaniment fitting the quoted passage. I especially enjoyed “Christmas Presence” with the children’s chorus. “Teach Only Love” announces itself with a didgeridoo! Allowah has added harmonics, drums and his guitar to several tracks. “So Long” is well-placed as the second to last track — appropriately upbeat using a keyboard organ. The final track tells us to “Come Home” which moved me into a final meditative spirit.