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Life Neurotica

by Foster

Part rock, part folk, even part dance, but all the unbelievably catchy stylings from Morgan Foster (lead singer of Common Shiner).
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1. Life Neurotica: Get Ready
2:01 album only
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2. Ready to Try
4:06 album only
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3. Above the Noise
5:35 album only
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4. Interdimensional Love Song
4:19 album only
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5. Life Neurotica: Be Healed
2:25 album only
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6. It's You
3:50 album only
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7. Icicle Lights & Taxi Cabs
4:01 album only
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8. On and On
2:57 album only
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9. Life Neurotica: Nice to See You
1:29 album only
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10. Jerusalem
6:46 album only
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11. Currents & Constructs
4:04 album only
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12. Life Neurotica: The End
2:25 album only
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13. Ghost in the Mirror
4:47 album only
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14. Wolves at the Door
4:47 album only
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15. Waiting for the Comeback
4:55 album only
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16. Life Neurotica: Rest
3:52 album only
Downloads are available as MP3-320 files.

ABOUT THIS ALBUM


Album Notes
In 2016, I found myself band-less for the first time since before I graduated college (14+ years), and I wasn't sure what would be next for me. The thing I knew is that I had to keep writing songs, that was something written into my DNA. I also had a bunch songs that I still really loved that never found their way onto an album for my bands, and it would really sadden me if those songs just sort of died. So I decided to throw it out there and see if all my talented Chicago music friends would be game to help me make an album. They were all game.

Next, I took another leap of faith by starting a Kickstarter to see if folks out there would be at all interested in an album. To my eternal joy, they were, and my kickstarter was successful.

This album is the result of not just those couple leaps of faith, but of making and performing music regularly for 13 years, and all the emotions that come with that. These songs are all parts of me, and they've come out of moments of profound sadness, desperation, frustration, joy, hope, and beauty. My only hope is that they can be meaningful songs to you as well, wherever on that emotional timeline you might be right now. For years, I would end emails and updates with "Common Shiner loves you", so now I'll just say that I love you all.
Morgan

Recorded at Foxhole Creative Studios (foxholechicago.com)
Engineer - Jon Weber
Producer - Morgan Foster

Special thanks to all the incredible musicians who joined me to make this album (in no particular order) - Mike Maimone, Jeff Brown, Jorge Leal, John Schieber, Jordan Good, Narciso Lobo, Zack Whittington, Michael James Brooks, John Dorhauer, Justin Past, Tim Koelling, Vijay Bangalore, Matt Nelson, Amanda Nelson, Jess Godwin, Laura Green, Erin Wawok Charles Murphy, Jessica Sheffield, Jack Eisenberg, and Emily Bernstein. And to Tim Frank and Jon Weber for seeing this whole crazy thing through with me.

Special thanks to my supportive and wonderful Kickstarter backers - Stephanie Benson, Alan Ritari, Cassie Moran, Ian Simkins, Michael Teach, Adam, Emily Hanna, Margaret Niederkorn-Rearer, Emma Boucher, Calin Skidmore, Jamie Gates, Elizabeth Dekker, Jared Saathof, Allisa Scanlon, Jack Brett, Zoran Gvojic, Kim Morris, Owen Stevenson, Chad Bobren, Amy Page, Vanessa Martinez Green, Matt, Jessie Vaca, Joe Foster, William Niederkorn, Mark Niederkorn, Nancy Little, Karl Boettcher, Ryan Hoke, Emily Palmer, Carolyn Milco, Jon Mulholland, Tommy Henry, Alana Joli Foster Abbott, Marissa Watson, John Morrison, Dan Franklin, Marc Delay, Kedron Rhodes, Jeff Jackson, Paul Dupont,

TRACK LISTING

1) Life Neurotica: Get Ready

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Drums - Jorge Leal
Bass - Jeff Brown
Trumpet - John Dorhauer
Trombone - Justin Past
Saxophone - Tim Koelling

Lyrics:

I'm ready
at least I think I'm ready
but the longer I debate the less I know
But if I fall back on these same old chords
will they move you any closer towards
my thought to you

I'm ready
I'll know when I know that I'm ready
but the harder I work through my list the more it grows
and I can't keep waiting until everything's done
I'm asking you to save me from this
Life Neurotica

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2) Ready to Try

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Keyboard/Organ - Michael James Brooks
Vocals - Michael James Brooks
Vocals - Laura Green
Bass - Jake Chandler
Drums - Vijay Bangalore
Lead Guitar - Jordan Good

Lyrics:

I used to think life was all in my mind
Cut down and rebuilt time after time
Life like's that, oh, life's like that
Life's not that, no, life's not that

And the ads say the love that you need
Can be found on the endcap that says "As Seen on TV"
Just ride it out, oh, just write it out
I won't fight now, I won't fight now

And I'm wasting my time worrying I'm wasting my time
rattling around in my head
So I end up living like I'm already dead
cuz

CHORUS
There's always something in the way
and there's always more I wish I could say
if you're ready to fly
I'm ready to try

What made you think life stops just for you?
The same predicament is shared by all of us too
We're all here now waiting for you
Let it go now, oh, let let go now

And my heart keep saying stop medicating
with regret and singing the blues
And start living like there's something to lose
cuz

CHORUS
CHORUS 2
And there's oh so much we could make
if I could learn to be found, but I'm afraid to look down
So I'm letting go
Thoughts of me just disappear
I'm alive because you're here
=====================================================

3) Above the Noise

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Acoustic Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Bass - Jake Chandler
Drums - Vijay Bangalore
Dobro - Charles Murphy
Vocals - Erin Wawok
Vocals - Amanda Nelson
Electric Guitar - Matt Nelson
Mandolin - Zack Whittington

Lyrics:

Faded white lines
The pavement moans and cracks
Through fields and broken signs
I walk, just like you walked
But the difference that I see is the dirt just clings to me

The road from Galilee
is paved with failed attempts from sinners like me
But you said follow me instead
and so I carry on though my strength is all but gone

CHORUS
And I felt you there where horizon meets the sky
Just beyond my reach
Just beyond my reach
So I sing it out cuz the only reason why
I'm still on my feet is to pull you close to me

Bare feet on even ground
I can't see gravity, but I know it holds me down
Just like I always feel you there
but still I never know why your children suffer so

CHORUS

CHORUS 2
And I'll be holding on
Because I need you right now
I'll walk until the dawn, oh this road just carries on
So shout it out
And keep me up somehow
Your voice will be my guide, your love inside my eyes

A love that breaks all chains
leaves none alone
restores all joy

A voice that shakes these veins
revives these bones
above the noise

So come on
=====================================================

4) Interdimensional Love Song

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Piano - Michael James Brooks
Vocals - Michael James Brooks
Bass - Jake Chandler
Drums - Vijay Bangalore
Violin - John Schieber
Electric Guitar - Jordan Good

Lyrics:

I walk into the rain curtain
and I dodge the drops to a cab
The distance is all objective
and I wonder how many galaxies I passed
And the umbrella sea parts in unity
and a red one gets away
Like so many lovers that never meet
lost and gone on New Years Day

This autumn leaf existence
so brief and so frail
We held our own on the branch
but now it's time to set sail
It's the beauty in the change
the cutting off of circulation
Was my beauty a design
or was the clock just ticking?

Were we lovers in another dimension?
Did you smile as I passed by you?
Did our atoms hold the tension
as the universe split in two?
Is it cold where you are
or a world as warm as Venus?
The size is so bizarre
a universe between us

Of all the things I've wanted
I needed you the most
Now I'm forever haunted
looks like the physics got us both
And the rain just keeps on sinking
til I forget your name
and I go right on thinking
the glistening makes us all the same
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5) Life Neurotica: Be Healed

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Narciso Lobo
Vocals - Jeff Brown

Lyrics:

I remember driving when I was only seventeen
and I pushed the pedal to the floor, thought it might be the end of me
and I didn't think I couldn't die, but I thought I could never be healed
Could I ever be healed?

And then there was a man I never forget about
who spread kindness, love and hope to everyone who was around
but then one day he left us, overwhelmed by doubt
that he would ever be healed
Could he ever be healed?

And now there is a man who floats down the stairs
and offers us enemies to focus all our fears
It's an elixir so sweet it seems we no longer care
if we will ever be healed
Will we ever be healed?

It seems hatred wins the day and we all mourn the loss
and the anger wells within me, desperate for a cause
And you say that this divide is one we will never cross
but I still pray we will be healed
I don't know how but we will heal
Oh God, we need to be healed
I don't know how but we will heal
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6) It's You

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Acoustic Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Mandolin - Zack Whittington
Bass - Jeff Brown
Drums - Jorge Leal
Banjo - Charles Murphy
Vocals - Charles Murphy
Vocals - Laura Green

Lyrics:

The Lord looked out and said let it begin
and everything we know did start to spin
And soon from the start, created an artist’s heart
filled it up with liquor and with sin

So now we stand on stage acting big and tough
but the audience will always call our bluff
And so our cross to bear is pretending like we don’t care
while never feeling like we’ll be enough

And for so long I’ve been trying hard to pretend
that all my work will have an end
But as you arrive, I realize anew
my greatest work of art just might be you
It’s you

The battles that I wage are always in my mind
just hymns and odes to those I’ve left behind
And it’s a blessing and a curse trying to find their worth
knowing they can never be defined

And for so long I’ve been trying to find my place
without getting lost in the emptiness of space
But as you arrive, I start to change my view
that my place is just right here with you
With you

The voice inside my head just keeps on telling me lies
like no one will remember me when I die
But I know I don’t need to fear, cuz folks will know I was here
Anytime they look into your eyes

And for so long I’ve been trying to make my path
before the universe decides to take me back
But as you arrive, I realize it’s true
My greatest work of art is likely you
It’s you
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7) Icicle Lights & Taxi Cabs

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Piano - Mike Maimone
Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Bass - Jeff Brown
Drums - Jorge Leal
Violin - John Schieber
Banjo - Charles Murphy
Vocals - Jeff Brown

Lyrics:

The city sleeps awaiting the dawn
The motions are there but the magic is gone
and I don’t know what I grieve
Maybe just another lonely Christmas Eve

CHORUS
The silent snow falls and I long to be real
the spirit I know is there but cannot feel
And the homeless and bar flies are keeping tabs
Icicle lights and taxi cabs

The carolers sing their last refrain
Happy couples board a frozen train
I walk ten miles, twenty, I can’t be sure
But it’s amazing how much I can endure

CHORUS
And somewhere in the night a king is born
a blessing to this world of mourn
and the wounds of the last are tender still
and I’ve a need that only you can fill

Every song about love as bitter as the frost
It’s like a Christmas for the lost
Just waiting for peace to take the lead
It would be a silent night indeed
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8) On and On

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Keyboard - Jessica Sheffield
Bass - Emily Bernstein
Drums - Jack Eisenberg
Lead Guitar - Jordan Good
Vocals - Jessica Sheffield
Gang Vocals - Matt Nelson, Amanda Nelson, Erin Wawok

Lyrics:

Tune in, tune in, is there anybody out there?
I’m either screaming through the mains or to a void of my own making
And all these machines are beeping out a chorus that keep us all locked inside
All dressed up with nowhere to go

I won’t be the last one
Who’ll never know
Why my courage gave up on me right when I need it most

CHORUS
I heard life’s what happens while you’re regretting what you chose
and then on and on and on and on it goes

This chair is more like a hospital bed, it won’t let me rise or fall
And I’m so sick of being afraid of what’s on the other side of the wall
And all these monitors say that I’m a dead man, I’m never getting out alive
I’ve heard that lie so many times I believed it, believe me

I won’t be the last one
Who won’t know how
This life will end so why do I worry about it now?

CHORUS

So pull the plugs and sound the alarm
This is a lit match, this is a call to arms
We were always told we’re on our own
But the truth is we were never alone

And I want you
And I need you
And we’re together in this whether you like it or not, so wake up!

I won’t be the last one
Who’ll never know
If I’m too broken now to find my way back home

CHORUS
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9) Life Neurotica: Nice to See You

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster

Lyrics:

I’m not ready to say this is the end
Feels like I’m always saying goodbye again
And I’m sick of all the distances, but in this moment friend
It sure is nice to see you again

Well I’m not ready to go, to say the least
But my feet are out the door and heading east
And it’s hard to find the words without sounding cheap
But friend it will be nice when I see you again

The world is on the move, leaving me behind
But wasting time with you is something I sure don’t mind
And I’m telling you the truth when I say it every time
Friend it sure is nice to see you again
And I’m sure it will be nice when I see you again
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10) Jerusalem

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Keyboard - Michael James Brooks
Bass - Jake Chandler
Electric Guitar - Jake Chandler
Drums - Vijay Bangalore
Vocals - Michael James Brooks
Ukelele - Narciso Lobo
Mandolin - Zack Whittington
Violin - John Schieber
Trumpet - Amanda Nelson

Lyrics:

And a dream becomes a hill, and a hill becomes a city
and there’s peace and love for all who dwell within
and we started out so brave, and we started out so holy
but with beauty there is always pain therein

Oh dusty death, you call your children home
from earth we form and earth we shall sustain
but we build our walls and urban sprawls on superficial lines
a thick divide fortified with beauty and pain

Though our dream was meant for all, our words become so hollow
for with difference there’s an element of fear 
and since apathy’s the throat where ignorance is swallowed 
our stomachs filled with every passing year

Oh Jerusalem, your children beg for you
to reveal a truth we never can obtain
and then we wake one day with stiff decrees so thick we cannot breath
such a shame that it all came from beauty and pain

Though Jacob was the first to stand up and be counted
against every thinly fashioned false pretense 
our frantic pace increased, each growing fear unfounded
and every effort went to strengthen our defense 
Woe is us, woe is me, woe is leaves, woe is tree
Woe is change and all that remains, beauty and pain
And our only function came to feed the rich and damn the poor
And Jacob died with a sign that said “We are secure”

Woe is us, woe is me, woe is grain, woe is seed 
Woe is chains, all is stained with beauty and pain 
Science is no match for our brevity 
til anything can be defined as an enemy 
Oh what have we become? Bartered lives for income
Filled our mouths with so much hate 
Can’t see beauty through the pain 
On every flag, on every pole, power rises to take control
on the backs of uninsured, with excuses so absurd 
Tell them all what Jacob saw, tell them all how he stood tall
And said we no longer defended all 
No empire’s complete until it falls
Oh Jerusalem 
Your children beg for you
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11) Currents & Constructs

Music by Morgan Foster
Lyrics by Morgan Foster and Vijay Bangalore

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Organ - Michael James Brooks
Vocals - Michael James Brooks
Bass - Jake Chandler
Drums - Vijay Bangalore
Vocals - Jess Godwin
Lead Guitar - Jordan Good

Lyrics:
Never knew where this river did run and bend
I was tossing rocks when I was only ten 
What did you imagine?
I imagined far away lands 
With beaches and jungles through the mist
But if I can dream it, then it must exist 
Could you imagine?
Like footprints in the sand

The ground calls out for every soul
with every life that’s born another one’s stolen away 
What I leave behind
just failures and constructs 
What I leave behind
or moments of awestruck 
What I leave behind
Fear is a constant to defy 
Defenses are high, it’s all inside, so just

CHORUS
Pull me out 
Come on just pull me out
I can’t go on 
Living inside my head, come on just pull me out

At some point you learn a little bit of how this works
The rocks I pile only make it worse 
Well what did you imagine?
Starting over somehow
Building bridges, burning bridges 
The same old cycle of tears after so many years
You couldn’t imagine
I thought I’d be better by now

But the river turns and changes course 
And we drift so far away just from the force 
What I leave behind
all my token regrets, or 
What I leave behind
just a collection of assets 
What I leave behind
the moss and water continue to grow around the rocks I throw but I know you can

CHORUS

I need a connection 
Just an intersection is all it takes 
It bends and it bends and it breaks 
I don’t know where I’m going 
I can’t stop this slowing, I’m gonna drown 
Or I’m gonna break this God damn dam down

CHORUS

What I leave behind
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12) Life Neurotica: The End

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Lead Guitar - Matt Nelson
Drums - Matt Nelson
Bass - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster

Lyrics:

Rage, rage my friends against the dying of the land
The end is coming soon, but this is no time to sit on your hands
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13) Ghost in the Mirror

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Keyboard - Mike Maimone
Bass - Jake Chandler
Drums - Vijay Bangalore
Synth - Matt Nelson
Vocals - Laura Green

Lyrics:
I cried when our river ran dry and you said “let’s just pretend” 
The same script just falls from my lips every time I start over again 
And I know this sadness is all elemental
but if it’s something mental, how do I get it out of my head?
And I hear that old familiar rattle
a pill for every battle to fight for me instead

Disdain in the pretense 
It feels almost like resistance

CHORUS 
There’s a ghost in the mirror, tracking me on radar 
It’s only getting clearer that I can’t fight this rationally 
It’s crawling under my skin, got me feeling like a has been
Seems already predetermined that the monster inside is me

Scared to drown through the cracks in the ground that suggest this will never end 
Love comes near and I feel all my fears arise again and again
All these doubts are so relentless, they’re leaving me defenseless to a fight that can’t be won
But if grace is just as strong an alliance, then maybe my defiance has already begun

I’m always feeling so small 
I gave you some, but you want it all

CHORUS

This fight doesn’t seem like it will be won
But my resistance has just begun
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14) Wolves at the Door

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Banjo - Charles Murphy
Violin - John Schieber
Trumpet - Amanda Nelson

Lyrics:

Steam clouds hang low, suspended in the air
Over chimneys and dryer vents 
There’s another flurry coming 
As soon as this one ends

And I hate where I stand
but I’m comforted in the chords
It’s hard to find the meaning anymore
And I know that there is ground
Underneath the salt and snow
Oh Lord, this February won’t let go

Find some tracks to lead you on, the world just seems so still
Like it’s all in sepia tone 
And it all comes rushing back, the times I snuck out late
when my father’s boots were like stone

And I do love where I’ve been 
but I’m scared of what it means 
to let go of the past and wait for warmer dreams 
And I know I’ll make it through, cuz I’m not the quitting kind
But I’m tired of always living one day behind

CHORUS 
When will it be enough, you are always wanting more
There’s a broken heart or two calling out from the storm
And I don’t want them to lose, but the wolves are at the door 
And God, I need some rest, but they’re always wanting more

CHORUS
=====================================================

15) Waiting for the Comeback

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster
Piano - Mike Maimone
Bass - Jeff Brown
Drums - Jorge Leal
Violin - John Schieber
Electric Guitar - Jordan Good
Ukelele - Narciso Lobo
Mandolin - Zack Whittington
Organ - Michael James Brooks
Trumpet - John Dorhauer
Trombone - Justin Past
Saxophone - Tim Koelling
Vocals - Vijay Bangalore, Matt Nelson, Amanda Nelson, Jess Godwin, Laura Green, Erin Wawok, Mike Maimone, Charles Murphy, Narciso Lobo, Jeff Brown

Lyrics:

It’s like right from the start 
We knew we were bound for ending
With all of our balance depending
On the roll of a die
Didn’t think that we didn’t belong
Lost, just playing our songs to the end of the night
And I want so bad to go back there 
With all of the wisdom we lacked there 
But instead I’m just

CHORUS 
Waiting for the comeback 
maybe when I’m older 
Waiting for the waiting to be over
I thought we’d change forever
but we all just got colder 
Waiting for the waiting to be over

I knew in my bones
We were so close I could taste it 
But I come off too strong when I’m wasted 
Maybe I’ve been so for years 
And it’s telling how I’m asking for space 
When all I do is long for embrace when the ending is near
Surrounded by all these goodbyes 
And I’m so sick of learning to die 
Just a few more beers

Can this moment last forever?
Can we go back to when we were younger?

CHORUS

Comeback Comeback
=====================================================

16) Life Neurotica: Rest

Lyrics & Music by Morgan Foster

Guitar - Morgan Foster
Vocals - Morgan Foster

Lyrics:

I never felt my heart
I’m not sure it ever started until you came
My life neurotica
Gave me nothing but a life of shame
But that can all disappear
I will always hold you and dry your tears
So come rest your weary head
Adversity will always lie ahead
And in all the words I say
I hope you know every day

That I’ll love, I’ll love you, I’ll love you more than the day before
Yes I’ll love, I’ll love you, I’ll love you more than ever before

So rest your weary eyes
Those existential cries are better left unsaid
The irony of control
is it’s the one thing you can’t hold in the end
And I am like the ocean, and you are like the shore
Every time you think I’m gone I keep coming back for more
And up here when I sing, it’s the echoes of my everything
And all our footsteps intertwined, I hope they do remind you

That I’ll love, I’ll love you, I’ll love you more than the day before
Yes I’ll love, I’ll love you, I’ll love you more than ever before
Oh I’ll love, I’ll love you, I’ll love you more than the day before
Yes I’ll love, I’ll love you, I’ll love you more than ever before

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